Nathan spoke to me

This is a tough time in my life, in a number of ways, not the least of which is missing my boy.

We are possibly facing changes in our life that are very stressful. Nathan's seen me stressed at times beyond all reason. Sometimes he wasn't able to calm me, but other times? He was my sanity.

Phil and I were having a heated discussion this evening. I, as is not uncommon, stomped down the hall to my computer for comfort. I was feeling insecure and disgruntled.

All at once I heard Nathan say, "Now Gramaaaaa" drawing out the last syllable of Grama. That is what he always said when he felt I was unreasonable about something. :-)

I just wonder if he had any concept of what an impact he had. Nathan, I hope you are my guardian angel. :-) You surely will keep me from making bad decisions.

I love you so much buddy, and oh dear God I miss you.