Naturally the reason I am starting this blog is to try to muddle through the loss of my beloved grandson Nathan Daniel Conner. But why call it Only for a Morning? Let me share with you.
As I was walking my fur babies the other morning, I stood in awe of the beautiful orange and red variegated Morning Glories. I was astounded at their presence as I hadn't planted them and yet they appeared as though to usher in the morning in all their magnificence as their tiny trumpet shaped blossoms reminded me that "This is the day which the LORD has made; Let us rejoice and be glad in it." Ps. 118:24
As I stood and admired their beauty, the thought crossed my mind that it's such a shame that such a lovely, delicate bloom only lasted for such a short time, as so many days I'm not up early enough to revel in their beauty. They come out only for the morning. I realized at that moment, that was how Nathans life seemed to be; only for the morning. He would never see the evening. Why must so many beautiful things be so short lived? Nathan was a beautiful boy, young man, and his life was cut so short. He had so much to give, and to learn and experience. Why our boy?
I miss him terribly and can hardly post for the trembly hands and watery eyes. God I know you are taking better care of him than we ever could have, but we sure do miss him. If only we could have him back.
I also learned that morning; that my grief isn't a one time thing that I'll get over after awhile. It's a journey, a long sometimes arduous journey. My life has changed forever, and I need to learn to adjust, and that is what this blog is about.
Blessings,
Lin aka Grama
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
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I LOVE THIS. IT'S INCREDIBLE. WE ALL MISS HIM SO MUCH AND I THINK OF YOU ALL THE TIME. IT DOESN'T SEEM RIGHT OR FAIR, BUT I KNOW THAT HE WAS NEEDED UPSTAIRS MORE THAN HE WAS HERE. THAT IS ABOUT ALL I KNOW. THIS IS A WELCOME BLOG AND I'M GLAD TO BE ABLE TO POST TO IT AND READ IT. XOXOXO NIK
ReplyDeleteYou are right, Lin. Grief is never a one-time thing. It is, indeed, a long and difficult journey that we must travel alone. There are just no words to comfort you at this time but I think you are doing a marvelous thing with this blog. It will help you, as well as many others who are mourning. Beautiful page, beautiful music, and words from your hear. God bless you and yours. Hugs(((((Lin)))))
ReplyDeleteDear Lin,
ReplyDeleteI was so touched by your post; what a wonderful way to share your thoughts, memories and struggles. I, too, know how difficult this journey is, and yes...it truly is a journey. We never stop longing to see our loved one again, though we have the assurance as children of God, that we shall see them again one day. The pain does lessen over time dear friend, but praise God, we can keep all those precious memories. I still cry thinking, and talking, about Mama, but I have comfort and yes, joy, in knowing that I shall see her again one day, and for the time being I can celebrate all those wonderful times we shared. May the Lord comfort you and give you peace in knowing that your loved ones are at the end of your journey. Love you.
Thank you so much Sister Lin for the invite to this new endeavor of yours! I was just asking Sister Lora the other day about your past website, I missed it when I was gone. But, this is good on so many levels.
ReplyDeleteThe love you display towards Nathan even in the depth of your grief shows that the unconditional love that the Holy Spirit instills in His followers is real and so very much alive!
I know you hurt dear Sister, and those of us who love you will continue to support you with our prayers, with our love and encouragement where we can. The BEST we can do is to remind you often that Jesus is as close as a whisper or even a heart-beat to you and will never leave you alone; never, ever!
I look forward to following you on your written journey and I am here to encourage you in it. This is Holy Spirit inspired whether you see it or not at this time. This IS what our Heavenly Father has given you to do for this period of your life. It will not be just for YOU though Sis, with the Lord, it never is. There is going to be someone, somewhere that you may or may never know who is going to read your journey and something that you write is going to help them, it's going to give them strength to continue and that dear Sis is service (ministry).
For now Sis God bless you abundantly -- He promises He will!
Your Brother in Christ-- Always
Pastor Roland