Wednesday, September 24, 2008

It Hurts

A while back I received an email from my daughter Lisa, Nathan's mama, that said:

"This says it all for me. Love, Lisa" and attached was a pdf that read:

I said, "God, I hurt."
And God said, "I know."

I said, "God, I cry a lot."
And God said, "That's why I gave you tears."

I said, "God, I am so depressed."
And God said, "That's why I gave you sunshine."

I said, "God, life is so hard."
And God said, "That's why I gave you loved ones."

I said, "God, my loved one died."
And God said, "So did mine."

I said, "God, it is such a loss."
And God said, "I saw my son nailed to a cross."

I said, "God, but your loved one lives."
And God said, "So does yours."

I said, "God, where are they now?"
And God said, "Mine is on my right and yours is in the Light."

I said, "God, it hurts."
And God said, "I know."

I don't know who authored this lovely piece, but they surely had some insight into the grief one suffers at the loss of a child.

I'm so sorry my darling Lisa that you hurt as you do. Sometimes I know I get so caught up in me and forget the agony that you are suffering. And I know I can't begin to imagine your pain. I only know the pain I feel as your mama, at the hurt you suffer and feel so helpless. I can't fix it for you. I love you darling Lisa.


  1. Dearest Lin, the poem It hurts and God said really says it all. So beautiful.
    My heart goes out to you, Nathan's mom and dad and Nick and all who loved Nathan.
    There are no words of comfort I can possibly give you but know you are all in my prayers and you have my love and I will be following this blog. ;-)

  2. This blog is such a beautiful tribute to Nathan, and a great way for you to work through your grief.

    Love you, dear friend!